I decided that being accountable is what I needed. So I vowed to start blogging about my weight. But it was a very long time ago when I came up with this blog concept. Revisiting now I feel a little bitter in thinking that had I REALLY done it then, this post would have a completely different message. I even had my first intoductory post written before I schluffed off to eat a Ho-Ho and drink some crumbs from a chip bag after having scarfed down all of the "adult" chips.
You wanna read it? Of course you do,,, here we go:
A long, long time ago, in a far away land, a quirky girl went into a store. She busily scoured the shelves to find "her" edition of the idealistic "Once upon a time" storybook. Sadly however, they were completely sold out. Instead, they offered her the rain check that she has held in her wallet ever since. Decades passed before she realized that the big eyed, small footed princesses had it ALL wrong anyway! Life isn't about ONE moment or ONE story it is a thousand wisps of time intricately pieced together like a wondrous mosaic. Each tiny burst of energy and experience make us the people we are. Once she TRULY understood this she could finally rip up that rain check to a fairy tale and start to make the best of her every day reality. It was then, twirling in the confetti of "conventional" happiness a new fantastical chapter began. And it would never be scr
Fast forward quite a few years after the hair bands are silenced, neon lycra is shunned and her questionable vodka driven decisions are distant memories,,, we find our shimmering demigoddess divorced with 3 kids and a penchant for junk food and in the middle of a life altering epiphany:
Lately, she wasn't feeling so "fantastical"!! This saddened her greatly.
Let's stop the BS... Geeze,,, get to the point blogging lady!
As you probably figured out, I am the quirky girl/self proclaimed demigoddess that has lost her whimsy and longs to capture it once again. I need to admit that I am not as wondrous as I aspire to be and do something about it. Health and depression has caused the weight gain that is dragging my life down. Only I can start and stay on the journey of weight loss, self acceptance and the changes that will facilitate a happily ever after within my heart. But until I lose the weight I will put my arms up in the air and celebrate each fatTASTICAL day on this roller coaster ride called dieting.
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So, yeah, pretty stupid post but it gets the point across. I have been bigger all of my life and fought it every step of the way. But the older I have become the harder it got and when I became very ill in 2009, I couldn't seem to get control of it. The darkness of financial strain, being sick with no other income in the house, losing everything with 3 small kids to care for and no family took me out of the game completely. I resigned to never traveling, never finding love, never being caught in a photo and never having sex again.. Oh, I went there. Yes I did (gasp).
In the middle of July I started the keto life. Oh it's a wonderful life in the land of cheese, meat and sucking Redi-whip from a can in the shadows. I had dabbled with this way of eating a decade before and had found success.
Keto is a "yes or no" diet for me. I either can has it or I can't. I definitely CAN'T has my stress reducing Ho-Hos anymore! But my tiny brain likes the concept of yes or no food choices. I have lost 35lbs since starting and already Tyra Banks and the Wilhelmina modeling scouts are stalking ya girl! I have a long journey ahead which I will tackle with stupid humor, copious amounts of Spam, green olives and meat induced honesty. So come hang with me if you choose. You can laugh AT me or WITH me as long as you are laughing, I will smile too.
